I couldn't figure out what I should title this post because it will never do justice to what I feel. 2008 saw me make and break a lot of things and the things that broke not only broke but shattered and the things that were made well... only a few remained joined. I have only weakly grown strong over the last year. I made a choice which is seemingly impossible to keep. Time and again everyone was right but there was something which didn't let me give it up. It’s almost time for me to say good bye now. A few more weeks and today will be history, everything so far will be a memory and everything I did will be a mistake I shouldn't have committed. I let the unsaid remain as it is and I let the un-did remain as well. I bottled up and now there is no space to accommodate. I intend on restarting something which had started 17 years ago and something that happened 17 months ago... but is it really that easy? I think not. If it were we'd all be jolly and merry, but for me I have always derived pleasure from grief. But I can't anymore. Let this be an official apology for all those who I have hurt during my existence and also a notice to all those whom I love that... I love you. It’s not the constant meeting or talking or what ever it might be that makes one special it’s just that when they say they love you and mean it. I believe I am two and I always have been. And those who have loved the both of me I thank you and promise to love you too. Power and respect are two things one can never achieve but can only earn and all those who might have thought it can be earned are under a delusion. 2009 promises to be just like any other year but I promise to make the best of it. Days, weeks and months will fly by just like last year and it’s those bugs on the windshield and those memories in the drivers and back seat that I shall remember forever. Punish those at fault and punish those for not having been at fault for it is them who are ignorant. Die a death where no one remembers the cause but remembers the events that lead up to our final live breath.